Post KOSMIK blues

Flashback peristiwa sebelum KOSMIK, sent, receive,sent, receive,sent,waiting,receive....dari sejambak, tinggal sekuntum.... adush... "mcmana ne....berat tanggungjawab ne....Ya Allah, permudahkanlah... Aku bukanlah pelindung yg terbaik bagi hamba-hambaMu, Engkau jua lah yg melindungi hamba2Mu..." tapi last2 Nadiah pulak yg kena "jaga" senior de yg sorang ne.... Huhu... Yela, kereta pun tak reti bawak.

"Siapa suka nama KOSMIK?" Saya suke!saya suke! (dengan bangganya angkat tangan)... 

Huhu... buat kali kedua (selepas DERU) sy berpeluang utk bermanja-manja lagi dengan IKRAM. tak dapat dinafikan, IKRAM punya daya tarikannya tersendiri, saya sgt mengalu-alukan kehadirannya dalam hidup saya. Saya enjoy masa2 sy di KOSMIK, saya tak la exactly keseorangan... Berada di bawah payungan ikram, saya rasa selesa. kehadiran murabbi yg komited dgn kerja dakwah, lontaran semangat sahabat2 sefikrah, ikhwah akhawat harapan umat yg bersemangat! sy tak dapat nafikan sy rasa berbeza... disinilah, somewhere i belong....

kebetulan pulak, habis KOSMIK, balik rumah, main ngan MP3 adik, lagu Linkin Park berkumandang...Somewhere i belong.....Sy ne mmg peminat Linkin Park, dulu la, sekarang ne da tak berapa sgt... Ye... mmg dorang ganas, tapi lagu dorang yg satu ne, seolah2 menceritakan, dengan tepat dan padat, ttg perasaan yg dialami sepanjang KOSMIK

words yg dalam bold tu is exactly what i felt...(lagu ne da di-edit, there are some words yg tak seswai dgn keadaan sy,hehe...sukati je)

(When this began)

I had nothing to say

And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me

(I was confused)

And I let it all out to find

That I’m not the only person with these things in mind

(Inside of me)

But all that they can see the words revealed

Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel

(Nothing to lose)

Just stuck, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long

(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real

I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say

I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face

(I was confused)

Looking everywhere only to find

That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

[Chorus]

I will never KNOW MYSELF until I DO THIS ON MY OWN

And I will NEVER FEEL anything else, until my WOUNDS ARE HEALED

I will NEVER BE anything till I BREAK AWAY from ME

I will break away, 

I'll FIND MYSELF TODAY

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong 

Yep...betul3x... I cudnt agree more with Linkin Park... 

at KOSMIK, i feel like... this is where i belong... this is where my wounds are heal.... this is where my pain are erased.... this is where i find myself... this is where i break away from my old self...i will never know myself, what i'm capable of and what i can do, i have to break away from my old self, and i have learn to do it on my own...

what i thought was never real, bahwa Islam kan berjaya di tangan kita, i can feel that its closer... I wanna feel like I’m close to something real, 

I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along

this is 

Somewhere I belong

Yeah! Go IKRAM~~~~ lagu IKRAM satu~!

Lirik oleh: Mohamed Hatta Shaharom & SaffOne
Lagu oleh: Saff One
Hak Cipta: Pertubuhan IKRAM Malaysia

Puluhan tahun telah kian berlalu
Jamaah dibina tanpa jemu
Pahit getir kita harung bersama
Manis juang nikmatnya terasa

Dalam usrah kita subur tarbiah
Janji setia dipatuhi
Dalam gerak kita menyusun langkah
Amalan syura diyakini

Azam digenggam penuh tabah
Membina IKRAM untuk ummah
Ukhuwah teras kegemilangan
Syariah menjadi pegangan

Demi redha Allah
Kita menjulang dakwah
Berpandukan al-Qur’an
Menuruti as-Sunnah
IKRAM wadah perjuangan

at-tarbiyyah wat-takwin

karikuna lit-tamkin

=)

jangan lupa, Ghayyir Nafsak!