Resolving Conflicts

Nobody likes conflict. But most of the time, we fail to avoid ourselves from one. Why is this keep happening? The reason why conflicts arise is because humans have the one thing that keep defending ourselves in all the wrong way. This is what we called “ego”. Ego is defined as an inflated feeling of pride in superiority to others. People have different levels of ego and the higher it gets the more likely they are to be involved in a conflict.

When conflicts occur, the best thing to do is just to understand the situation get it over with or apologize and move on. But the presence of ego avoid self from being the person who is guilty because the feel of superiority towards the other person. The greater ego will of course belong to the person who is not guilty in the first place as they feel that they deserve justice and the other person deserve a punishment. But just because the other party is guilty, the chances that they let off their ego 100% are a bit subjective to assess but usually doesn’t reach to such level. This is the common situation. Most of the time, the one not guilty will do everything they can to prove of their innocence and to lay out the offences of the other party. On the other hand the other party will come up with all the excuses to defend themselves.

Accusing, lying, harsh words, bad perception, gossips, to some extent even physical fight, all of them usually happen in the process of resolving a conflict. Isn’t it painful? It’s painful to just think about it, let alone having to undergo the whole process. Have we ever thought for once, just let those ego slide off and resolve conflicts as simple as it gets. Understand the whole situation, put ourselves in the shoes of the other party even though if we are innocent and apologize where needed. There is no doubt that in a conflict, both party have some degree of offences, because if there is no offence from one party the conflict will not arise in the first place. Even so little, usually it exists. Therefore it’s a good practice to always apologize to each other in the end.

Another good practice is to blame ourselves first and see what come out of it. Actually to think more deeply, blaming ourselves is much easier than blaming others, especially if our aim is to avoid conflict rather than creating it. We cannot change other people but we can try to change ourselves. When we blame others, how frequent would they accept the blame and improve themselves? Usually what happen is they will blame us again, we blame them, they blame that and this and that....the lame "blame game" begins… when does it stop? Nobody knows…

But because we are blinded by ego, making ourselves guilty when we feel that we are not is not that easy. Honestly, there is always a way to blame ourselves in any situation. When something bad happen to us, we can just think that we are not careful or when other people betray us, we can think that we have not portrayed our good values enough to others. Find a way, be creative. Once we let off that ego by blaming ourselves first, our mind will be cleared off the clouds and rains that make us so angry in the first place. Surely its painful to blame ourselves and being the guilty one, so we need to be careful when we hurt ourselves. The one to ask for support is God, not to be in a state of depression. Therefore, it is actually more calming to blame ourselves rather than to keep the fire on, burn ourselves with the hatred. When we really think about it, even though its painful being sad when we are gulity, it’s not as bad as the pain from anger when we are innocent. Sadness may be tears of rains with repentance, but anger is just thunders and fires with hatred.  Which would you choose? But if we are the kind of person who got easily depress there is another good way to solve conflicts.

Sometimes some people would not let go the other person that easily for some understandable reasons. For example if the other person’s offences are too painful for them, the other person needs to learn an important lesson from the situation, or when it involves crimes that require justice. The definition of how serious an offence is differs from person to person. As humans we have to understand that people have different views and perception. We should never think the other person was overreacting without fully understanding their situation. It would be unfair to judge other people’s feeling base on our own.

In times when we feel like it’s too difficult to forgive and forget, the best thing to do is to make the other party truly understand our situation at the same time trying to understand theirs. This is the best thing to do. When we let them know everything, let them know how we feel and how much pain was involved, if the other party is a good person, they can understand how much forgiveness need to be sought. At the same time they (the victim) must also understand the situation from the guilty part to be able to fully forgive them. 

Even in the most crucial of conflicts, if there is a need to want to make peace, just try it this way. There is no need to undergo the whole process of a painful conflict when we can actually learn to understand each other better and celebrate our diversities. 

in the case of the Global conflict of the Palestine issue,I can however, see that there is only 1 party that is guilty, and that is the Israel...I guess this conflict occur because the other party is hardly human at all!they are worst than the devils!

On My Birthday

On my birthday...

I receive 2 very sweet and wonderful gift

From my two very sweet and wonderful friends

Rahmah and Izzanis

Yep, dats my rumiee~

Every year they would wish me a happy birthday without fail

At the middle of the night

Haha… yea,I guess I was expecting it too…

Not because I want it

Just because I knew they would

(but yeah, who wouldn’t want that right?)

The gifts I receive this year

Is slightly different from the previous times

To think that both of them had the time

To “handmade” my present

this is how it looks like...kawaaiiii....

"guys if you're reading this, i just like to say how meaningful these gifts are.., I may not be so gooey and squisshy that night, but deep inside my heart i really appreciate these gifts. i hope we will be friends for ever, and i really mean it... since we live nearby lets promise that it will happen ya? lets juz grow up together n face life challenges together in this path of da'wah that we had sworn to follow for eternity...i wanna wish FRIENDS FOREVER.. and i actually really really mean it this time...:D"

Another great thing about this birthday, is the facebook celebration. I guess this is the first time I had my birthday wished through the facebook. Well, because I just had a facebook for this year. Yeah, I never thought it would be that lively there. Even though there was a lot of birthday wishes, I try to thank em all… there’s an important lesson here for me, on people’s birthday it’s a good thing to wish them a happy birthday through the facebook, because it will decorate their walls, and this makes them happy…:D

Last and definitely not least is the gift from Allah…

I receive motivation, happiness and just before the holy month of Ramadhan too… how lucky! I need those two to make it through this historic month of the year. This year is the best Ramadhan ever! With the study week and exam just around the corner, our force to ‘tawakkal’ will become so much stronger! insyaAllah…

Color your heart

When I was asked to 'color your heart'

I thought I always be able to color it differently

But from the state I had been

I can only stain it with the black coal

But it seems so hard (the coal did not give so much color)

I take my pen

and I scarred it some more

while in tears

I know I did this to it on purpose

I'm sorry heart

but I realize

I can have a clean and beautiful heart

I need to be confident in Allah

to always believe in Him

Allah takes care of everything....

In usrah today

a hadith touched my heart...

sesiapa yang memusuhi kekasih (waliKu), maka Allah mengisytiharkan perang terhadapnya. Tidak ada satu perbuatan diri (taqarrab) kepada Aku oleh hambaKu yang lebih Aku cintai selain daripada kewajiban-kewajiban yang aku fardhukan ke atasnya. HambaKu akan terus beramal menghampiri diri kepadaku dengan melakukan amalan-amalan sunat sehingga Aku mencintainya. Apabila Aku sudah mencintainya maka Aku (menjadikan) pendengarannya dengannya dia mendengar, penglihatannya yang dengannya dia melihat, tangannya yang dengannya dia memukul dan kakinya yang dengannya dia berjalan. Jika dia memohon sesuatu dari Aku nescaya Aku berikannya. Dan jika dia memohon perlindungan Aku (dari sesuatu) nescaya Aku akan melindunginya. Aku tidak pernah ragu dari sesuatu yang Aku lakukan seperti Aku ragu (hendak mengambil) nyawa hambaKu yang mu'min, di mana dia membenci maut sedang Aku tidak suka menyakitinya

Al-Bukhari

Anybody?Nobody? *sigh...*

Nobody's Home lyrics

Well, I couldn't tell you

Why she felt that way

She felt it every day

And I couldn't help her

I just watched her make

The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now?

Too many, too many problems

Don't know where she belongs

Where she belongs

She wants to go home

But nobody's home

That's where she lies

Broken inside

With no place to go

No place to go

To dry her eyes

Broken inside

Open your eyes

And look outside

Find the reasons why

You've been rejected

And now you can't find

What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now

Too many, too many problems

Don't know where she belongs

Where she belongs

She wants to go home

But nobody's home

That's where she lies

Broken inside

With no place to go

No place to go

To dry her eyes

Broken inside

Her feelings she hides

Her dreams she can't find

She's losing her mind

She's falling behind

She can't find her place

She's losing her faith

She's falling from grace

She's all over the place, yeah

She wants to go home

But nobody's home

That's where she lies

Broken inside

With no place to go

No place to go

To dry her eyes

Broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside

Oh oh

She's lost inside, lost inside

Oh oh, oh

From Hero to Zero

have you ever wonder

is it okay to go pull the breaks?

just stop and watch the world passes by for a moment

stop, to actually sit and think

why am i here?

what do i want?

am i happy?

what actually happen?

but you never did

too scared to let go

still binded by a strong ego

the so called your own "hero"

never wanting to feel what it's like

to laugh again and wonder

how did i end up....

Chorus:

from hero

to zero

that's when you let go

to see the other side of yourself

from a true but broken mirror

don't lie

watch yourself as you fall

and then stand up again

from the ruins of your success

using a concrete of hope

still catching your dreams

looking back

the sandcastle that you build 

may be more beautiful than what u see of others

but it can still be destroyed

from just a single wave

don't try

try to build it back

from the same sins and guilt

coz it will not be the same

nor stronger to stand the viscous ocean wrath

that's when u end up....

Chorus

from hero

to zero

that's when you let go

to see the other side of yourself

from a true but broken mirror

don't lie

watch yourself as you fall

and then stand up again

from the ruins of your success

using a concrete of hope

still catching your dreams

what makes a hero?

when do we become a zero?

do we make sacrifices for others?

or are we just saving ourselves?

What can I say to myself...

Metamorphosis is a bit dusty recently...I feel sorry for myself...frankly speaking, the aura of positive thinking in me had been deteriorating since.....well honestly i don't want to talk about it.Rather than spending time thinking about the event that leads to our defeat,we should focus on strength. I guess that is something I can still hold on to.

still training my mind to be able to make the day where the sun will always shine and the rain will make me see the beautiful rainbow

Before this I actually think it’s impossible for me to get in a state where I had exhausted all my postiveness. Fortunately, I still believe that it is possible that one day, my life is filled with sunshine and I am positive all day long. Positive thinking skills are in fact requires a lot of practice. Its not difficult you see, because its almost like turning on a switch, up goes our positive emotions. But most of the time, we feel like its so difficult to turn up that switch because we don’t want to let go all these resentment, sadness, anger or anything else that is holding back our positive emotions. Now that I experienced it myself I guess it’s safe to say I know how that feels. Sometimes we hold back negative feeling because we thought that the negative emotions may attract others to give us comfort or we want the other person that hurt our feelings to acknowledge their mistake toward ourselves. There are many other reasons, and sometimes you hold back just because you don’t think that in that time, being positive will not give any good benefit to us.

Well to all the reasons, NOTHING, and I emphasize again, NOTHING in this world can actually compares to the happiness of having the ability to yield a positive attitude in any kind of situation. But to gain that, you must not take any situation as an exception. To any situation you must always be able to smile to it and think positively. Stop thinking about this situation and this only because training the mind to be positive requires a life long learning and what you are doing now is actually a training for you mind to be able to function positively in the future. It is not about THIS situation only, is about our whole life. never risk taking the negative road to act towards a situation because once you let yourself think negatively your principles gets broken thus becomes weaker and weaker in yourself. You have a principle in your life, stick to it. for all you know, it do give benefit, not just to yourself but to others as well.

Stop blaming others towards your negative attitude. Even if they may be responsible but the choice to act towards their action lies 100% to you. Stop thinking of the things others disapprove of yourself and start thinking about the great thing that had happens once you start to boost yourself with positive attitudes. If you were to weigh them down, you will find there are more good than bad when you start to have positive thinking. Is it not you that at first believe that others mistakes are just mild errors? You cannot get perfection but what you can get is what close to perfection and whatever that makes you happy and what you think that can make others happy.

Didn’t you miss your good friend, Mr Subconscious? He haven’t talk to you so actively haven’t he? Well, for that, you just need to look deep inside yourself again and again, pray hard and pray well because only Allah sets things right again. Believe that Allah never left you all alone, He never did and never will. That is His promise.

How to Scare Israel and its Associate

Always see life positively, no matter how bad it can be. There is always a good side of everything. But then again, some may say; What about Israel’s cruelty towards the Palestinians? Is there anything positive about that? Well, the great thing about life is that there is always a positive side of everything and really I mean everything.

At first I didn’t see it. But it’s true after all, that we can still be positive with all this cruelty around. How is that possible? Think about this. What scares Israel the most? Is it our anger? Our rage? Our weapons? The more I read about Israel’s doings the more I am convinced these people will stop at nothing! How do we fight evil? By doing evil? No, of course not. We fight it with good. That’s how Superman, Batman and even what the PowerPuff Girls do right?

Is it enough that we voice out our rage and anger, at the same time still do things that will make Israel happy? And what makes Israel happy is seeing us being more and more immoral every day. Why? Well, because that’s who they are, immoral people, and they want people to keep supporting them. What scares them are not weapons, they have that, our voice? To think they actually care? Come on, that’s not it… what will really scare them is the sight that people is leaving the disco to go to the mosque, leaving the alcohol to live a healthy life, leaving the music to hear the Quran, leaving worthless gossips to talk about improving iman, leaving McD and KFC and to eat halalun toyyibah foods, leaving the immoral people to get along with the good one…

What they are scared of is the sight of them, being left out; no more people are with them, supporting their cruelty, doing what they do every day. It’s the sight of their hard work to make more people become immoral faint into dust as they kill another life at Palestine. It’s the feel that whatever bad they are doing, we are becoming more religious, stronger, more loving and more caring, we are becoming better! Israel Zionist and their associate, America had been living all these time trying to make us live an immoral life, a life full of lies, hatred, fun with no boundaries, and doing worthless things. Well guess what, while our brothers and sisters at Palestine fight them with stones and homemade bombs, we are here in our own land destroying their influence on ourselves and the people around us. All over the world, right now, more and more people had rise to destroy them at every aspect of their evilness that they have created! More and more people are realizing that the only way to scare them is to become the kind of people that they are scared the most, the ones that will do anything to become good and leave their way of life….

Boycott them!

Now, the term “doing bad” is no more, let’s change it to “doing what Israel do”. So when we think about doing anything that is against what that is good and constructive, remember, that is what Israel wants. Yes, apparently I am taking these people to the level same to those of the satans, that live just to create evilness on earth. What can I say; they do deserve that title after all.

So if we are really serious in helping our Palestinians brothers and sisters, it’s okay if we cannot raise an M-15 rifle to shot them through their heads, we have this, our good attributes, our way of life, Islam! Did you know, most of the immoral things we do now are actually rooted from their teachings? And the reason for them to insist on creating their own country is to make sure that earth will be filled with immoral people just like them. So to really fight them is to tackle them by their root, their first intention and main objective in life, which is to destroy the muslims way of life and all things that is good. What we must focus now is to support more and more goodness on earth, living the life of a true muslims and destroy more and more immoralities to make sure they will die because the extinction of their supporters, their lifeline…

So what can I say to the Zionist? Hey, ‘good job’, guess what, now that you have made us angry, we will become your worst nightmare… the longer you hurt our brothers and sisters in Palestine, the smarter we become, the stronger we become, more and more of us are becoming CLOSER TO ALLAH!!! Do you think that the more you become evil, the more we will bow down?? NEVER! The more lives you kill the more doa we recite, the more prayers we do…Just in case you never knew about history, the strongest of muslims is when they are closer to Allah. So watch us now as we throw away what you love the most, your worthless music, your worthless movies, your singing and dancing, your sexual life, your immoralities, your way of clothing, your food, your words and all that you want us to do… we will not bow down, and we will spread this message to everyone around us, because we know, all of them also hate you that very much, we will make them seem that all things BAD is YOU ISRAEL, and all things GOOD is what will KILL YOU!

“Sekali-kali tidak redha orang Yahudi dan Nasrani sehingga kamu mengikut millah (cara hidup) mereka.”

ISRAEL!! You will find that whatever good we do right now, we are doing it because we HATE YOU ISRAEL!! Know this! This anger that you cause is what will burn the flames of IMAN and TAQWA inside us! Because now more and more people have come to know, only by getting CLOSER to ALLAH, such a stubborn enemy like you will go down!

I urge everyone reading this to SPREAD this wave of destruction and lets DESTROY them right where we now

The Art of Giving advice...

“be so busy improving yourself that you have no time to criticize others”

At first, I thought the hidden meaning of this quote is not to criticize others since we, ourselves also have deficiencies. But is it okay just because we are not perfect we should stop giving advice? Okay, so criticizing is different from giving advice. But most of the time, when we give advice, how can we tell that the other person doesn’t take it as a criticism? The one who is talking would say, I am giving an advice but the one who is listening would sometimes say that they are criticizing. So what about the term “notice”? In Malay we use the popular term, “menegur kesilapan”.

It’s true, how the people perceive our advice or notice depends on how we deliver it. Usually we give notice or advices to people when we feel that their doings pose a problem to ourselves or maybe can give negative effects towards the people around. Honestly, I don’t really like giving advices or notices to people. Maybe it’s because I am not good with negative words (hohoho…).

Giving advices is also important when we feel that the other person should improve on a certain negative values that they own. Most of the time when we give advices or notices, our intention is that so that the other person can improve themselves and become a better person. But how can we deliver it so that they can perceive it so well and absorb it so naturally they will not have even the most superficial of wounds in their hearts?

To tell you the truth, the only One that can give advice or notices so well, that nobody can do it better, softer, harder, clearer, is none other than Allah. But that doesn’t mean we don’t need to do anything to help others to improve themselves. What I’m trying to focus here is giving advices or notices to the people we love without hurting them.  There is another degree of giving advice if we want to pass it to a mass of people.

But it is harder to give advice to our close friends or family members that sometimes can be hurt by our criticism. But then again, “be so busy improving, no time for criticizing”… so how do we help them improve by not criticizing, not judging, and not pointing out the negative part? One tip Kak Nabilah told me. Sometimes, it’s not necessary that we point out what is wrong and what is right, but the key to make them realize that they should change should arise from the inside of their hearts. It is more important that we make them understand and feel the need to improve rather than straight away saying that they should change. The key is to implement the fear to Allah, the love towards Allah, the love towards going to heaven and the love of all things good. Make them see the beauty of what is good rather than showing them the ugliness of what the bad things they are doing now. Otherwise, make them feel the fear of doing bad in general, but this should be done in a very creative manner.

Everything that we wish to make others to improve on themselves must be based on the fact that the improvement is that so that Allah will be more pleased with us, not base solely on our individual needs of comfort. When we want others to change for our comfort, it is not likely that Allah’s message will pass through them and it is likely that we are selfish to do so.

So rather than saying, “you should be more punctual at work, if not other people’s work will be affected” why not say “Coming early is great, we have time to settle down, reflect before starting work, and pray that whatever we do will be blessed by Allah. I found that every time I came early for my work I feel happier and guided by Allah. It’s such a great feeling! :D”.

Did you notice? Not only that the words used are all happy words, with no criticism, but at the same time, when we say something good, when we affirm, it’s a like a seed that will grow a beautiful flower. If we have something good that we do, we should always affirm it so that the mind remembers and will express it frequently. If we don’t say it, we are denying it, our mind will not take the good things we do seriously, and therefore we usually will forget about it and will not express it regularly. That’s why it is important to always see the positive side of everything in order to always be able to express happiness in life.

So we are advising by not criticizing, at the same time improving! So its true after all, “be so busy improving that we have not time to criticisize”. There is more than one way to skin a cat right? So why not take a softer and more positive way to do it. It will truly be a win-win situation.

Bila Allah Memujuk hambaNya

Semua benda baik yang kita perolehi di dunia ne semuanya dari Allah. Tapi kita sering lupa, kadangkala focus kita hanya untuk bergembira… Allah berfirman dalam Al-Quran, bukan sekali, tapi banyak kali jugak la, ayat yang bunyinya mengatakan, sifat sesetengah manusia ne tidak bersyukur. Bila ditimpa kesusahan berdoa macam nak rak, tapi bila Allah lepaskan dair kesusahan itu, terus dia lupa, kikir dan merasakan “kebaikan ini adalah hasil titik peluh ku”… Nauzubillah… hopefully kita tak tergolong dalam golongan orang seperti itu

Kita kena “sensitive” dengan kehadiran pertolongan Allah. Macamana nak buat camtuh? Senang je, sebenarnya… Resepi kejayaan dan positive thinking seorang muslim tu 1 je; pergantungan 100% pada Allah. Mereka yang merasakan kebergantungan kepada Allah 100% tidak akan rasa gentar dalam hidupnya. Mereka ini (insyaAllah kita juga) adalah orang-orang yang sentiasa menang, kerana mereka sentiasa gembira dan yakin yang setiap pemberian itu adalah dari Allah dan Allah sentiasa memberi yang terbaik untuk hambaNya. Sebagai seorang muslim, kita menghadapi “win-win situation everyday”. Bila ditimpa masalah kita sabar, dapat pahala, bila diberi nikmat kita syukur, dapat pahala… Cuma how we react towards that yang membezakan samaada kita win or lose.

Nak dijadikan cerita, ini Cuma kisah yang berlaku baru-baru ni yang boleh kata berkait dgn topic diatas.
Saya ne, memang tak pernah-pernah dibuat diri sendiri pegang sebegitu banyak jawatan yang agak besar selama hidup saya. Tak silap currently ada dalam 8 jawatan saya pegang kot, ada besar, ada kecik… (macam tamak pulak kan?). Tapi tu la, baru tahun ne dapat tahu, seronot rupanya pegang jawatan ne.. huhu…

Anyway, one of them is menjadi penolong posting Ortho. Kerja dia memang banyak kena kontek dr dr ortho yang boleh tahan gak la bizi dia. Sampai disatu tahap, saya merasa tertekan gak la, bukanlah banyak kerja nak kena buat, tapi yang sedih tu, macam tada siapa yang sudi nak hulurkan sokongan atau pertolongan. Ada la bukan takde, tapi kadang-kadang tu rasa macam keseorangan sangat dalam posting ortho ne. Astagfirullahalazim… tah pape je…

Tapi tu la hakikatnya perasaan daku ketika itu. Sampai disatu tahap lebih tinggi, apabila terus saja dalam stress, tanpa sapa nak teman pegi tgk case,case write up takde patient lagi, patient cadangan da kuar, nak kena wat surat lak, pastu time tu rasa, “akulah budak ortho yang paling sikit tahu anything bout ortho”. Mana taknya, memang x pernah-pernah study dengan aman, kalo ada pun time SG, itupun banyak gak da luper. (yg tu salah sendiri la). So merasa rendah, kurang ilmu dan keseorangan. So pergilah daku beruzlah di bilik tutor ortho wanita, yg kosong ketika itu. Sedih… menangis… nak merajuk la tu.. gediks betul. Tapi nak wat camner, saya ne perangai memang kalo tengah ada problem saya ngadu pada Allah. Tapi nak ngadu pada Allah ada adabnya.

1.       Jangan menyalahkan sesiapa
2.       Rasakan diri yang lemah dan bersalah (be vulnerable to Allah)
3.       At the same time thinking must be rational and mature, jangan ngadu cam bebudak
4.       Mengadu tentang solution not the problem

So apa yang dibuat? Doa la pa lagi...

“Ya Allah, aku hambaMu yang serba lemah ini, aku sedar aku penuh dengan kelemahan dan dosa, Kau ampunilah aku Ya Allah… Aku kini sangat lemah dan terluka. “PUJUKLAH HATIKU INI YA ALLAH”… pujuklah aku, pujuklah aku, SAYANGI aku, KASIHANI aku…”

Tapi perkataan yang selalu ter’zukkk adalah perkataan, “pujuklah hatiku”. Entahlah, bila kita kata “pujuklah”, benda tu rasa macam dekat sangat dengan kita. Yela, selalunya yang selalu memujuk ni manusia kan? Jarang pulak kita kata Allah yang pujuk. Tapi kan bila cakap camtu macam seolah-olah ada satu perasaan, macam Allah berkata-kata pada saya “there there My sweet hamba, la tahzan, Im always here for you, don’t worry, everythings gonna be just fine, I will give u something to sooth your worries” waktu tu rasa macam manja-manja gitu, macam syok sendiri… seolah-olah dipeluk oleh kasih sayang Allah….uuuu…. Seronot…!

So saya teruskan menanti sweets or aiskrim dari Allah ne. so waktu tu continuously fikir, mesti Allah nak bagi sweets ne, musti musti. well, lagi satu yang saya sedar, Allah memang ceeepaaaat benar Dia memujuk. Tak alih-alih, eik….? Patient yang dulu kuar and yang ingat nak kena pegi buat surat untuk amek case note de kat unit rekod tu da masuk balik da… waaa…. Setel problem tu… wuhuhu…

Yang tu sweets, aiskrim pun ada maaa…. Dekat klinik plak memang bahagia la rasa. Yang jadi pelik nya, saya ne kan da lama giler tak study, tapi bila doctor tanya soklan, rasa macam yakin lak nak jawab. So bole kata semua soalan dr zainal saya jawab. Gasak ar, betui ke tak, main boh je la. Memang la ada salah, tapi yang pelik tu ada gak yang betul. Benda yang dihantam tu kadang-kadang terlintas camtuh je, so jawab je la kan. Time klinik tu memang selamba je, macam ruma sendiri lak lepak kat katil, kat kerusi dr, borak ngan dr macam geng-geng je. 

Kena lak klinik ngan dr. Zainal yang selamber rock gitu, selamba je la. So banyak gak ar dapat belajar time klinik tu. Dr. Zainal siap bagi learning issue lagi. Jangan kata dr Zainal je, dengan klinik Dr. Jamari pun sempat tumpang sekaki. Dr Jamari pun besh, suka bagi kata-kata nasihat. Best dengar kata nasihat, rasa disayangi gitu. 

Pastu memang ada satu perasaan, all the subsequent events semua nya seronot, berjalan lancar je suma benda. Kalo orang lain dengar, “hek eleh, kecoh jer, tada la apa sangat pun”. Well, say what u want to say, bagi diri yang tak wat CWU lagi, tak cukup study, pengalaman yang sedikit nak kecoh ne, sangat sangatlah bermakna… Walaupun malam tu meting, abis tu sempat diskusi ngan Rahmah pasal video, pastu sempat study gak malam tu. Walaupun sikit, tapi for the first time, dapat study dengan aman.

Itulah dia kalo Allah nak memujuk. Kadang-kadang tu kan, Allah pujuk kita, tapi kita tak sedar pun. Kita rasa, mula-mula sedih pastu oh seronot lak. Kan hidup macam roller coaster, kadang-kadang kat bawah, kadang-kadang kat atas… tapi kita kadang-kadang lupa siapa yang boleh turunkan dan naikkan kita tu kan?

So nampak tak praktikalnya disini. Kita bila susah, selalunya kita ingat Allah. Kita minta pertolongan. Tapi bila Allah tolong, kadang-kadang tu kita lupa, pertolongan tu dari Allah. Tapi bila kita minta “dipujuk” oleh Allah, pujuk tu de ada aura kasih sayang dalamnya, jadi bila kita minta dipujuk, kita bukan sekadar mengharapkan pertolongan, tapi kita akan mengharapkan lebih dari itu, kita harap Allah pujuk, maknanya membuatkan kita rasa disayangi olehNya, dicintai, di belai, dipujuk lah kan… 

orang yang nak dipujuk ne de emo de lebih sikit dari orang yang nak ditolong. Jadi kita akan sentiasa alert dengan perasaan kita, kita akan sentiasa mencari kasih sayang dari Allah and trust me, bila kita alert dengan Allah’s presence, kita akan jadi lebih alert dengan pertolongan dari Allah. Jadi bila pertolongan itu turun, yang turun bersama pertolongan itu adalah kasih sayang yang merupakan main attraction doa kita tadi.

 When we are alert with our feelings for Allah, our spiritual belief is engage with our emotions. Jadi lebih mudah untuk kita rasa bersyukur…. insyaAllah…  memang banyak gak la kelebihan jadi seorang wanita yang punya 9 emosi nih.. huhu..

So dats it for perkongsian hari ni, marilah kita bergantungan pada Allah, kerana Allah la sebaik-baik pergantungan….

Viva Palestin : Aura Shoutul Harokah

Bab 3: Aura Shoutul Harokah

“nampak tak apa yang Seha Nampak….?” Kak Seha seolah-olah berteka-teki.

“apa dia? Kak Seha nampak apa?” Iman tertanya-tanya. Billboard yang mengiklankan Perhimpunan Perdana tersebutkah? Kepalanya tertoleh kiri kanan, matanya menatap setiap billboard yang tersusun di tepi jalan raya besar itu.

“ itu ha… Stadium Bukit Malawati… da nampak dah…” Kak Seha semakin ceria.

Nampaknya perjalanan jihad 5 mujahidah itu pendek sahaja. Iman terbayang-bayang perhimpunan itu yang bakal riuh dengan luangan takbir para mujahid mujahidah.

Kak Seha meyusuri car park di stadium Bukit Malawati dengan berhati-hati. Kereta milik sahabatnya itu perlu dijaga dengan baik. Sesekali Kak Seha beristigfar, takut kalau-kalau tercedera kereta itu dalam perjalanan jihad mereka. Hakikatnya begitulah  sepatutnya sifat manusia dalam pemilikan apa jua yang ada didunia ini. Semuanya bukan milik kita. Setiap yang ada di tangan kita perlu dijaga dengan penuh tanggunngjawab. Perlu dijaga seperti bukanlah milik kita.

Tanggunggjawab yang terbesar pula adalah islam itu sendiri.

Solat Asar didirikan

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“Seha dekat kerusi kuning”

“banyak kerusi kuning ni, yang mana satu”

“eh tu ha Kak Seha”

Akhirnya bertemu juga 5 mujahidah selepas terpisah seketika kerana tugasan sukarelawan. Tempat duduk yang dipilih Kak Seha betul-betul berhadapan dengan pentas. Orang ramai mula berpusu-pusu memenuhi ruang di Stadium Bukit Malawati.

Iman gemar duduk tanpa berkata apa-apa dan memerhatikan gelagat manusia yang semakin lama semakin ramai memenuhi Stadium. Dia yakin, tazkirah dari Allah ada dimana-mana sahaja, bila-bila sahaja. Apa yang perlu dilakukan hanya diam… buka minda… buka hati… terima apa sahaja bentuk hidayah dari Allah...

Kelihatan orang ramai yang datang dalam kelompok besar. Ada yang memakai pakaian yang hampir sama,membawa sepanduk dan banner, yang muda, yang tua, lelaki, perempuan, berpakaian sopan kesemuanya, tidak lupa juga mereka yang mengenakan mafla palestin yang seolah-olah menjadi trend pada malam itu. Terbit pula rasa malu, tiada apa yang dibawa bersama sebagai simbolik tanda sokongan padu terhadap misi menghantar bantuan kepada Palestin itu. Maklumlah, keputusan untuk turut hadir juga dibuat di saat-saat akhir.

Iman kini berada bersama dengan mujahid-mujahidah dari seluruh Malaysia, malah ada juga dari luar Negara! Ya, Iman bangga, syukur, kerana dapat menjadi sebahagian dari perhimpunan itu.

***

MC perhimpunan pada sebelah petang muncul di pentas. Pemuda yang bersemangat itu penuh dengan keyakinan cuba menyemarakkan lagi suasana di dalam stadium.

“TAKBIR!!!”

“ALLAHUAKBAR!!!”

Namun Iman juga sedar… hambar… dimana semangat mujahid-mujahidah? Penonton tidak kelihatan bersemangat sebagaimana Iman bayangkan selama ini.

Persembahan pertama disampaikan oleh sekumpulan pemuda yang membawa lagu palestin dengan rentak moden. Iman cuba menghayatinya…

“atau adakah kita sekadar menjadi penonton setia” kata-kata itu dilaungkan berkali-kali dengan rentak rap. Benar… adakah rakyat Malaysia sekadar penonton setia pederitaan rakyat Palestin sahaja? Adakah dia sekadar penonton setia sahaja? Iman bermuhasabah sendirian.

Laju juga kata-kata mereka. Iman pernah meminati music rap suatu ketika dahulu, malah, dia masih meminatinya. Mudah baginya untuk menerima persembahan yang lain daripada yang lain itu. Namun sambutan masih hambar… dimana semangat mujahidah…?

Persoalan bakal terjawab…

***

“dipersilakan… Shoutul Harokah yang akan membawakan empat buah lagu…!” Iman tersentak. Akhirnya, kumpulan nasyid yang tidak asing lagi baginya. Lagu-lagu dari kumpulan Shoutul Harakah sering sahaja dijadikan lagu tema mukhayyam khoriji yang pernah dihadirinya. Iman tidak pernah melihat rupa penyanyi Shoutul Harokah. Kacakkah mereka? Mudakah mereka? Tinggi? Pendek? Besar? Kecil?

Kelihatan lima orang lelaki menghampiri pentas.

“biar betul…macam pakcik-pakcik je..” bisik hati Iman setelah melihat lima lelaki berbaju kemeja kosong tampil diatas pentas. Lagak mereka bersahaja, langsung tidak terlihat aura rasa bangga, atau mungkin juga bongkak yang boleh terlihat jika ia artis-artis popular lain. Tidak pula mereka sibuk mengangakat tangan sambil melambai-lambai kepada para penonton. Tidak pula mereka sibuk memperkenalkan diri.

Tetapi, tanpa disangka-sangka, para penonton kelihatan bersemangat! Penonton-penonton mula bangkit, banner dan sepanduk mula berdiri. Ruang hadapan pentas ditumpahi penonton dari kerusi-kerusi bawah.

MasyaAllah… inikah dia aura Shoutul Harokah yang sering diperkatakan itu? Iman mula merasakan bahang semangat jihad mujahid-mujahidah Malaysia.

Seperti telah dirancang oleh pihak penganjur, dentuman music kumpulan nasyid yang menjadi tarikan utama itu lebih kuat berbanding artis-artis jemputan sebelumnya. Malahan getaran music itu menusuk terus kedalam jantung. Dada Iman terasa senak seketika dek getaran music yang begitu hebat. Namun dia merasa bahagia, matanya ditutup rapat. Getaran itu dinikmatinya.

“Ya Allah satukanlah aku dengan semangat jihad….” manis pula rasanya.

Lagu pertama kumpulan Shoutul Harokah berjudul dunia itu berentak lembut. Iman belum pernah mendengari lagu itu sebelumnya. Namun kali pertama mendengarnya hati Iman tertarik, seperti cinta pandang pertama. Kak Zack yang duduk di sebelah Iman turut menyanyi sama.

“Wah, hebat, sudah dihafal liriknya.” Bisik Iman

Dunia

Tebarkan salam
Dengan segenap iman
Tebarkan kebaikan
Pada semua insan

Tegakkan keadilan
Tuk bangun negri ini
Semoga kita
Jadi makhluk berarti

Dunia...
Tempat kita terus berkarya
Dunia...
Tempat kita beramal mulia

Dunia...
Tempat kita singgah semata
Dunia...
Bekal tuk di akhirat kita

Inilah saat berbuat yang terbaik
Untuk menuju kehidupan sejahtera

Penyanyi kumpulan Shoutul Harokah bukan menyanyi kosong sahaja. Sebelum memulakan nyanyiannya salah seorang penyanyinya, Hilman Rosyad Sihab, memberikan kata-kata semangat kepada penonton. Ternyata nyanyian mereka bukanlah sekadar hiburan tetapi juga merupakan sebuah seni tarbiyyah bagi para pendengarnya.

Lagu kedua kumpulan Shoutul Harokah adalah bingkai kehidupan.

“Bingkai kehidupan? Bestnyer…!” Kak Zack semakin ceria.

Iman tidak menghafal nama-nama lagu kumpulan tersebut, dia hanya mengetahui lirik sebahagian lagu-lagu kumpulan Shoutul Harokah. Tatkala music dimainkan, Iman menganjakkan badannya kehadapan. Bersemangat. Dia yakin dia tahu lirik lagu ini.

Bingkai Kehidupan

Mengharungi samudra kehidupan,
Kita ibarat para pengembara
Hidup ini adalah perjuangan,
Tiada masa tuk berpangku tangan

Setiap tetes peluh dan darah,
Tak akan sirna ditelan masa
Segores luka di jalan ﷲﺍ,
Kan menjadi saksi pengorbanan

Allahu ghoyatuna
Ar Rasulu qudwatuna
Al Quranu dusturuna
Al Jihadu sabiluna
Al Mautu fi sabilillah, 

Asma amanina

ﷲﺍ adalah tujuan kami,
Rasulullah teladan kami
Al-quran pedoman hidup kami,
Jihad adalah jalan juang kami
Mati di jalan ﷲﺍ adalah,
Cita-cita kami tertinggi

Alhamdulillah. Puas… Semangat jihad jelas terasa. Dadanya yang kesempitan itu tanpa disangka-sangka mampu melontarkan suara yang hebat. Malah Iman juga kagum, getaran suaranya yang direndahkan ke tahap base itu membuatnya berasa gagah.

“Takbir satu kali….?... Jawabnya JIHAD!!!” Hilman Rosyad seolah-olah member arahan.

“Takbir dua kali….? Jawabnya JIHAD FI SABILILLAH!!” sambungnya lagi

“Takbir tiga kali….? Jawabnya JIHAD FI SABILILLAHI ALLAHUAKBAR!!”

Iman semakin bersemangat. Ada pula task yang diberikan oleh penyanyi kumpulan hebat itu kepada penontonnya. Sepanjang empat buah lagu yang dinyanyikan oleh Shoutul Harokah mendapat sambutan yang teramatlah hebat.

Sekumpulan besar ikhwah berada di ruang hadapan pentas. Tangan mereka dihayun-hayunkan kearah pentas  laju  mengikut rentak lagu Shoutul Harokah. Iman teringat tayangan-tayangan video para pejuang Palestin yang selalu dimainkan di program-program memperingati Palestin yang suka dihadirinya. Gaya ikhwah dari Malaysia itu saling tak tumpah dengan para pejuang Palestin yang akan ke medan perang.

MasyaAllah… moga iman dan semangat jihad mereka juga sama membara.

“Palestin milik siapa….?!!” Jerit Hilman Rosyad Sihab lagi

Iman seolah-olah sudah tahu, seolah-olah soalan yang dilontarkan itu soalan bocor, tanpa teraga-agak dia terus menjawab dengan lontaran suara yang gagah.

“Milik umat Islam di SELURUH DUNIA!!!”

“Milik umat Islam di seluruh dunia!!!” Hilman Rosyad memberi jawapannya. Tepat sekali. Iman gembira..

Persembahan terus disambung, semangat terus membara…

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Mars Kepanduan

Bangkitlah mujahid bangkitlah
Rapatkan barisan rapatkan
Ayunkanlah langkah perjuangan
Mati syahid atau hidup mulia

Siapkan dirimu siapkan
Gentarkan musuhmu gentarkan
Takkan pernah usai pertarungan
Hingga ajal kan menjelang

Henjakkan rasa takut dan gentar
Walau raga kan meregang nyawa
Karena Allah tlah janjikan surga
Untukmu mujahid setia

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Gelombang Keadilan

KAN MELANGKAH KAKI DENGAN PASTI 
MENEROBOS SEGALA ONAK DURI 
GENERASI BARU YANG TELAH DINANTI 
TAK TAKUT DICACI TAK GENTAR MATI 

BAGAI GELOMBANG TERUS MENERJANG 
TUK TUMBANGKAN SEGALA KEZALIMAN 
DENGAN TULUS IKHLAS UNTUK KEADILAN 
HINGGA PERTIWI GAPAI SEJAHTERA 

TAKKAN SURUT WALAU SELANGKAH 
TAKKAN HENTI WALAU SEJENAK 
CITA KAMI HIDUP MULIA 
ATAU SYAHID MENDAPAT SYURGA 

***

Merah Saga

Saat langit berwarna merah saga
Dan kerikil perkasa berlarian
Meluncur laksana puluhan peluru
Terbang bersama teriakan takbir (Allahuakbar!)

Semua menjadi saksi
Atas langkah keberanianmu
Kita juga menjadi saksi
Atas keteguhanmu

Ketika yahudi-yahudi membantaimu
Merah berkesimbah ditanah airmu
Mewangi harum genangan darahmu
Membebaskan bumi jihad palestina

Perjuangan telah kau bayar
Dengan jiwa, syahid dalam cinta-NYA

Musik lagu-lagu Shoutul Harokah punya rohnya tersendiri. Malam itu, roh itu bagai memayungi seluruh stadium itu dengan sayapnya yang lebar. Jelas terasa perbezaannya jika dibandingkan mendengar lagu Shoutul Harokah dari radio atau audio dengan mendengarnya secara langsung. Dengan lagak semangat penyanyi-penyanyi Shoutul Harokah, mimik muka mereka, gaya mereka... MasyaAllah... Memang berbeza...

Bersambung...

p/s:

Shoutul Harokah menyampaikan 8 buah lagu hari itu (jika tak silap la), 4 pada petangnya, 4 lagi pada malamnya. Maaf tak dapat nak muatkan kesemuanya...

Terdapat juga persembahan hebat dari muadz (baitul maqdis, stand up), Raihan dan beberapa artis undangan lain.

Dipendekkan cerita, memang bergegarlah Stadium Bukit Malawati malam itu…