Post KOSMIK blues

Flashback peristiwa sebelum KOSMIK, sent, receive,sent, receive,sent,waiting,receive....dari sejambak, tinggal sekuntum.... adush... "mcmana ne....berat tanggungjawab ne....Ya Allah, permudahkanlah... Aku bukanlah pelindung yg terbaik bagi hamba-hambaMu, Engkau jua lah yg melindungi hamba2Mu..." tapi last2 Nadiah pulak yg kena "jaga" senior de yg sorang ne.... Huhu... Yela, kereta pun tak reti bawak.

"Siapa suka nama KOSMIK?" Saya suke!saya suke! (dengan bangganya angkat tangan)... 

Huhu... buat kali kedua (selepas DERU) sy berpeluang utk bermanja-manja lagi dengan IKRAM. tak dapat dinafikan, IKRAM punya daya tarikannya tersendiri, saya sgt mengalu-alukan kehadirannya dalam hidup saya. Saya enjoy masa2 sy di KOSMIK, saya tak la exactly keseorangan... Berada di bawah payungan ikram, saya rasa selesa. kehadiran murabbi yg komited dgn kerja dakwah, lontaran semangat sahabat2 sefikrah, ikhwah akhawat harapan umat yg bersemangat! sy tak dapat nafikan sy rasa berbeza... disinilah, somewhere i belong....

kebetulan pulak, habis KOSMIK, balik rumah, main ngan MP3 adik, lagu Linkin Park berkumandang...Somewhere i belong.....Sy ne mmg peminat Linkin Park, dulu la, sekarang ne da tak berapa sgt... Ye... mmg dorang ganas, tapi lagu dorang yg satu ne, seolah2 menceritakan, dengan tepat dan padat, ttg perasaan yg dialami sepanjang KOSMIK

words yg dalam bold tu is exactly what i felt...(lagu ne da di-edit, there are some words yg tak seswai dgn keadaan sy,hehe...sukati je)

(When this began)

I had nothing to say

And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me

(I was confused)

And I let it all out to find

That I’m not the only person with these things in mind

(Inside of me)

But all that they can see the words revealed

Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel

(Nothing to lose)

Just stuck, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long

(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real

I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say

I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face

(I was confused)

Looking everywhere only to find

That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

[Chorus]

I will never KNOW MYSELF until I DO THIS ON MY OWN

And I will NEVER FEEL anything else, until my WOUNDS ARE HEALED

I will NEVER BE anything till I BREAK AWAY from ME

I will break away, 

I'll FIND MYSELF TODAY

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong 

Yep...betul3x... I cudnt agree more with Linkin Park... 

at KOSMIK, i feel like... this is where i belong... this is where my wounds are heal.... this is where my pain are erased.... this is where i find myself... this is where i break away from my old self...i will never know myself, what i'm capable of and what i can do, i have to break away from my old self, and i have learn to do it on my own...

what i thought was never real, bahwa Islam kan berjaya di tangan kita, i can feel that its closer... I wanna feel like I’m close to something real, 

I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along

this is 

Somewhere I belong

Yeah! Go IKRAM~~~~ lagu IKRAM satu~!

Lirik oleh: Mohamed Hatta Shaharom & SaffOne
Lagu oleh: Saff One
Hak Cipta: Pertubuhan IKRAM Malaysia

Puluhan tahun telah kian berlalu
Jamaah dibina tanpa jemu
Pahit getir kita harung bersama
Manis juang nikmatnya terasa

Dalam usrah kita subur tarbiah
Janji setia dipatuhi
Dalam gerak kita menyusun langkah
Amalan syura diyakini

Azam digenggam penuh tabah
Membina IKRAM untuk ummah
Ukhuwah teras kegemilangan
Syariah menjadi pegangan

Demi redha Allah
Kita menjulang dakwah
Berpandukan al-Qur’an
Menuruti as-Sunnah
IKRAM wadah perjuangan

at-tarbiyyah wat-takwin

karikuna lit-tamkin

=)

jangan lupa, Ghayyir Nafsak!

Emotions

i feel his pain

but what can i do?

i want to help

but how?

am i suppose to do something?

am i suppose to sacrifice something?

is this a test for me?

how do i get through it?

should i stop worrying?

my road

my road

my road

i choose this way

stay on this road

i choose this way

don't you dare give yourself an option

Ya Allah

i'm too clueless right now

show me the right way

please protect me and the people i love

keep us safe

Sabar....

Kadangkala aku tertanya

Mengapa aku masih bersabar?

Adakah suci niat itu?

Atau mungkin syaitan yang banyak menggodaku

Menggoda untuk meneruskan?

Menggoda untuk meninggalkan?

Barangkali syaitan juga keliru…

Apa yang sebenarnya tersirat dihatiku?

Adakah aku bakal tertipu?

Atau mungkin mereka yang akhirnya terkedu?

Ahhh..!

Tinggalkan lamunan!

Keluar dari selimut dosamu!

Jangan terus dilayan maksiat

Kerna hati yang hitam mudah hilang arah tuju

Kemana aku ingin pergi

Itu bukan lagi soal hati yang lemah dan pilu

Tapi hati pejuang yang tak bisa kalah

Dengan kata-kata menikam sang musuh

Biarlah aku jadi begitu!

Kerna ini pilihanku

Jika kesabaran ini hukumanku

Walau dengan hati yang luka berdarah

Mana mungkin aku berbalah!

Dengan tuhanKu Yang Maha Tahu

Jika kesabaran ini tarbiyah bagiku

Maka panjangkanlah dan tambahkanlah

Agar teguh aku berdiri

Mengharap kasih dari Ilahi

Terus dan terus aku berlari

Mencari cinta yang benar-benar hakiki

Ini bukan lagi mimpi

Kerna ini sudah menjadi realiti

Sepahit kesabaran menjadi yang menanti

Pahit lagi hidup yang tak bererti

Namun ingatlah wahai pejuang

Sesuci mana niatmu

Janganlah kamu mudah tertipu

Kerna syaitan kan terus berbisik padamu

Dan nafsu kan terus mengesakkan nafasmu

Carilah ketenangan dari Kitab suci Tuhanmu

Dan jadikan ilmu pendamping seumur hayatmu

Teruslah mengharap cinta Allah

Dan teruslah dalam munajatmu

A friend in Art

Picture by MalvaAlcea of DeviantART

A friend in Art...

The time you left your room

I stare at the empty bed

As I lay down in the emptiness

My feelings echoes cross the empty room

Tears run down unexpectedly

Will I be lonely?

Can you still be there for me?

Can I still lend my shoulder for you?

Will you still share to me your funny stories?

How can I blame you my friend?

When my heart is just as fragile

To say I know what you have felt

Or to say I saw it like what you saw through your eyes

But tell me how to stop me from blaming myself?

For not being a reason for you to stay

But then when fate has set its foot on earth

I don’t want to be the person to defy His Knowledge

I remember the time we say to each other

“Will you be my friend, my very best friend?”

I couldn’t remember who says it first

But it comes from our heart, both of our hearts

As we put our arms around each other

Our tears become the only witness

Where in this court of law

That friendship can be ruin because of distance?

As words of art become the string that bonds us

And Allah becomes the Watchful Observer

How can I astray from this beautiful friendship?

The most unique one I ever had

To be able to express myself in such a way

Not many would and want to understand

This desire to create beauty

Using emotions and using vocabularies

A desire rooted from the passion to love

And the ability to let emotions takes form

To exaggerate feelings in an artistic way

And to nourished this gift from Allah

In the safety of my own action

My friend in Art

We are never far away in form

We are never far away by heart

But we rarely see to greet each other like we use to

Because of time, because of work...

But this moment of art

Is the moment that lasted long enough

For you to know that I care

For me to know that you care

For us to know that we care and understand each other

Maybe not as close as they think

Maybe not as far away as they think too

Nevertheless

I’m glad that I have...

A friend in Art

Kali pertama Bersugi~heee....

Hari ni saya beli kayu sugi...saje nak try rasanya bersugi...tapi sebab tak biasa kan...rasa janggal sket...tapi takpe,nak gak try...hohoh...

sambil menulis blog ni sy sedang menyental...dan mnyental...lalala...

saya try cari cara-cara bersugi kat dalam internet,tapi takde pulak yang tunjuk cara-cara yang detail.so men boh je la...sental2,gosok2,lama-lama mcm besh lak...tapi still belum get used to the taste huhu...

ne baru 1st time bersugi,taktau la rajin tak sy terus bersugi...harapnya lekat la amalan ne sebab bersugi ne sunnah...and i love my teeth very much, since Rasul Allah have shown us the best way to take care of it, lets do it then!!yuk!

apa bezanya bersiwak (bersugi dgn kayu sugi) compare dgn toothbrush biasa? Saya bukak buku kegemaran sy (yg sy pinjam dari Surau Ar-Razi), SUPER HEALTH, Gaya Hidup Sehat Rasulullah...ini perkongsiannya sih....(buku tu bahasa indon la plak)

• Antibacterial acids:kali pertama bersiwak akan rasa pedas sikit (oooo patutla....) kerana ada kandungan yg berupa mustard dalamnya yg merupakan antibacterial acids substance...the effect is actually better than normal toothborush,...huhu...
• chemical compunds: chloride, pottasium,sodium bicarb, silica, sulphur, vit C, trimethyl amine, salvadorine, tannins dan beberapa yg lain yg  berfungsi utk memutih dan menyehatkan gigi dan gusi....(n dorang buat toothpaste using all these stuff)
• Aromatic oil:mempunyai bau dan rasa yg segar (well,mungkin sy silap beli kot,rasanya tak la segar sgt) menjdikan mulut berbau harum dan menghilangkan rasa tak sedap.
• Enzyme: yg mencegah pembentukan plaque
• Antidecay agent: by reducing the amount of bacteria and also promote salivation to clean and protect the mouth

Bagi kawan2 yg beli kayu siwak sama2 tadi,ne tips utk mendapat manfaat maksimal dari siwak:

1. nex time beli, pilih kayu yg segar bukan yg warna coklat kering. 
2. tumbuk hujung siwak sampai serat kau menyerupai sikat gigi. jgn guna waktu kayu tu keras,nanti boleh luka (tapi tadi sy men boh je,hehe)
3. simpan siwak dalam bekas yg tertutup tapi ada ventilation sbb taknak bacterial colonization kta situ kalau lembap semacam
4. cuci siwak sebelum guna, n cuci serta keringkan after guna ye
5. lepas 5 hari (depends la,kalo guna sekali da teruk da...takyah citer la) potong serabut n tumbuk yg baru...

Selamat beramal~~~:D

selain tu boleh baca info dari:

http://keluargaislamku.blogspot.com/2010/11/waktunya-dan-cara-cara-bersugi.html

click image for larger view

Mari Berhijrah

in remembrance of Forum Diskusi Hijrah di surau Ar-Razi

Bila tiba masanya utk aku menangis

maka aku tangisi

kelemahanku

masa silamku

apakan daya

Semua yg pernah aku lakukan dulu

Semua yg pernah aku rasakan dahulu...

Nyah!tiada lagi datang menghantui!

aku insan baru hari ini

masa silamku utk Mu

masa sekarang ini utk Mu

masa depanku utk Mu

Laillahaillallah

Muhammadur-Rasulullah

maka kalahlah aku

rebah

jatuh menyembah bumi

segala rasa angkuh,riak,ujub 

rebahlah!jatuhlah!

hinanya aku wahai Tuhanku,,,

Ampunilah segala dosa-dosa ku,,,

biar beribu kali aku mengulangi kesilapan yg sama

tatkala jari telunjuk mendongak dgn takutnya
dan lisan ini membisik kalimah
LAILLAHAILLALLAH
tiada Tuhan melainkanMu

maka tiada siapa lagi yg layak aku Agungkan melainkanMu Ya Allah...

Maha Pengasih

Maha Penyayang

Maha Mengetahui

Maha Bijaksana

Maha Melindungi

aku ingin melihat wajahMu Ya Allah

Engkau yg tak pernah bosan melayan kerenahku

sedangkan aku selalu ingkar padaMu

sedangkan aku sering melakukan maksiat padaMu

sedangkan aku terkadang lalai mengingatiMu
sedangkan aku jarang mengikut perintahMu

MasyaAllah...

masih sudi Kau mengampuni diri ini?

aku masih lemah

aku sentiasa lemah

tanpa rahmatMu Ya Allah

masakan aku bisa berada di sini

bersama hamba-hambaMu yg soleh dan solehah

masakan aku temui jalan ini

yang penuh duri namun ganjarannya terlalu indah

masakan aku bisa menangis

sedang hati ini terasa manisnya iman merasa kedekatan denganMu

masakan aku mampu bangun menyebut ALLAHUAKBAR

setelah syaitan bersorak riang kemenangan?!!

Astagfirullahalazim...

Astagfirullahalazim...

Astagfirullahalazim...

Layakkah aku Ya Allah

menerima semua pemberian ini dari Mu

apa yg telah aku lakukan sebelum ini Ya Allah

hingga ingin Kau memilih diri ku ini

menjadi hambaMu yg kau sebut-sebut di dlm Quranul Kareem

yang kau sebut-sebut dikalangan ahli-ahli syurga

apa yang ada pada diri yang hina ini Ya Allah

sedang semua nikmat itu jua dtg dariMu Ya Allah

semakin jauh kaki ini melangkah

semakin berat beban yang digalas

semakin banyak kekosongan dlm diri yg perlu aku isi

seberat yg disangkakan

sepedih yg dibayangkan

sepahit yg dianggarkan

namun dapatkah dibanding dgn nikmat yang Engkau janjikan?

atau adakah aku antara hambaMu yg tidak mempercayai janjiMu?

Mustahil!bukankah alam ini dan seluruh penciptaannya menjadi bukti yg kokoh

dan Rasul itu benar-benar manusia yg terpilih

utk menyampaikan apa yg tidak dapat dijangkau oleh akal manusia
maka adakah janjiMu itu tidak aku percayai??

mengapa aku masih soalkan?

mengapa masih perlu rasa berat utk memilih?

samaada utk berada pada jalanNya yg lurus

atau diselimuti kegelapan jahiliyah

tinggalkanlah segala kekusutan dunia

tinggalkanlah segala perhiasannya

kau kan dapati dunia ini benar-benar tempat yg sementara

sedangkan alam akhirat itu kekal selama-lamanya

maka mengapa masih aku keliru dalam memilih

samaada perlukah diri ini utk berhijrah

niatku untukMu

maka bawalah aku ke jalan yg lurus itu Ya Allah

dan jadikanlah aku hambaMu yg senantiasa bermujahadah
mencapai kemenangan tika dudunia
dan trus di akhirat kelak

Indahnya nikmat islam ini
janganlah walau sesaat Kau buat ku buta akannya...

amin Ya Rabb..

The Elder Sister

go on

just try to hurt me

with words as sharp as the point of your black pen

or with ignorance...and arrogance

"little ones...how could you...?!"

oh elder sister,but they are your siblings...

so don't cry...

don't cry i say!

don't even carve a name on a stone

not even an alphabet on the white pearly sands

you are!yes you are!

you are the elder sister

strong and wise

protective and responsible

you are!you are the elder sister!

yes you make mistake

but recover dear sister!

recover fast!

your siblings needs you!

to be strong and wise

yes you can get weak sometimes...

but stand up!

stand up fast oh elder sister!

your siblings needs you!

be bold!be brave!

your siblings needs you!

to protect them 

and to take the role of a leader

patience...

patience oh elder sister...

don't use harsh words on the little ones

patience, oh patience dear sister

don't even let them know how much they hurt you

patience oh patience dear sister

you know better than to lose you temper

patience, oh patience dear sister

your words should contain advices rather than criticism

yes you are human

yes you can be hurt too

but grow up, grow up oh elder sister

don't act foolish and childish

your siblings are watching

they are always observing

your siblings are learning

aren't you their role model?

you are, you are the elder sister

kind and considerate

willing to make sacrifices...

you are, you are the elder sister

keep smiling and keep supporting the little ones

they need you to be happy

they need you to be supportive

you are the elder sister

be loving and caring to your siblings

spread love dear elder sister

with truth and sincerity

with no reason nor circumstances

spread love dear elder sister

like a garden of roses in the early spring

aren't you glad you're the elder sister?

so what if your siblings won't respect you

being the elder sister...

its not about winning

its not about having a fair life

its not about getting what we deserve

but its about making the right choices

the right choice might be painful sometimes

but life on earth is no place for you to rest

the pain and sufferings is your richness in the afterlife

the life you can never compare to this short time we have on earth

make the right choice oh elder sister

be;

strong..

wise...

brave...

protective..

supportive...

patience...

kind...

considerate...

sacrificing...

happy...

loving...

caring...

you are, you are the elder sister

wish for your death everyday as the elder sister

no matter who may your siblings be

be the elder sister

you are the elder sister

By:

Zatel Iman Rozali

Butterfly Fly Away

Today

I dare to say it

I had evolve

To become the beautiful butterfly I always wanted to be

I know I must keep on evolving

Finding more and more knowledge and skills

Trying to become the best at everything

Butterfly fly away...

But today

I dare to say

This is the person I wanted to be

Strong and still strong no matter what happen

To be able to stand up after a fall

To be able to still cry even when others laugh happily

And able to smile when others cry miserably

To think good of others no matter how painful it could be

To keep believing in God and keep searching for His light

Somehow,somewhere
I have someone to thank for it

Whether you know or not

Whether you will or not

I am still thankful

You make me strong enough

To take my first step

And weak enough

To seek for Allah’s protection

My prayers be with you

And to all my friends

Thank you

Thank you all for always supporting me

Always Be There

Ya Allah, pemilik hati yg sedang gundah ini, tenangkanlah diriku Ya Allah... Yakinkanlah aku bahwa Kau sentiasa kan menjagaku, dan Kau sentiasa mmberi yg terbaik utukku... Permudahkanlah petunjuk Mu,dan ubatlah segala ketakutan dan hapuskanlah bisikan syaitan... Sesungguhnya cintaMu itu jua lah cinta yg perlu diri yg hina ini raihkan bagi mencapai kebahagiaan hidup didunia dan di akhirat...Tuhan yg tahu segala isi hatiku,Kau juga tahu bagaimana harus hati ini diiubati,maka hadirkanlah penawar duka Mu Ya Allah

Always Be There Lyrics

By: Maher Zain

Alllahu Akbar…

If you ask me about love

And what i know about it

My answer would be

It’s everything about Allah

The pure love, to our souls

The creator of you and me,the heaven and whole universe

The one that made us whole and free

The guardian of HIS true believers

So when the time gets hard

There’s no way to turn

As HE promise HE will always be there

To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy

Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there

HE’s always watching us, guiding us

And HE knows what’s in all in our heart

So when you lose your way

To Allah you should turn

As HE promise HE will always be there…

HE bring ourselves from the darkness into the light

Subhanallah praise belongs to YOU for everything

Shouldn’t never feel afraid of anything

As long as we follow HIS guidance all the way

Through the short time we have in this life

Soon it all’ll be over

And we’ll be in His heaven and we’ll all be fine

So when the time gets hard

There’s no way to turn

As HE promise He will always be there

To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy

Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there

HE’s always watching us, guiding us

And HE knows what’s in all in our heart

So when you lose your way

To Allah you should turn

As HE promise HE will always be there…

Allahu Akbar…

Muslimat Biasa

Wanita yang menutup aurat, pergi majlis ilmu, menyertai usrah, dan melakukan seperti yg disyariatkan oleh islam sering kali dilihat sebagai golongan yang "baik-baik" atau digelar "tudung labuh club" atau juga dianggap "ekstrim". Mengapa ini terjadi? Sedangkan bukankah semua itu apa yang ditetapkan oleh islam? Kini mereka yg tak tutup aurat, tudung pun borderline, takde la nak join2 usrah ne, couple2 sikit, dianggap golongan biasa2 je...Apa yg biasa tentang itu?? Tanggapan terhadap term "biasa" akan sentiasa berubah jika kita terus mengikuti trend dunia manusia, tapi jika kita kembali pada undang2 dunia islam, semua itu boleh jadi telah terpesong jauh sekali! Lupakah kita pada cara hidup kita yang sebenar? Ya kita bukanlah makhluk luar biasa, tapi kita bukanlah manusia biasa,yang definisinya menurut tanggapan manusia, tapi kita muslim muslimat biasa,menggunakan definisi Islam, Al-Quran dan Sunnah...

Aku ingin jadi muslimat biasa

Yang cintanya pada Allah melebihi cintanya pada manusia

Mengambil Allah sebagai pelindung setia

Dan akhirnya syahid sebagai seorang syuhada...

Aku ingin jadi muslimat biasa

Yang menjalani hidup ini kerana mencari redhaNya

Melakukan terbaik dimana saja

Kerana yakin Allah sentiasa menjaga...

Aku ingin jadi muslimat biasa

Yang memilih Islam sebagai cara hidupnya

Menutup aurat dan menjaga tingkah lakunya

Menjadi secantik-cantik hiasan dunia...

Aku ingin jadi muslimat biasa

Yang sentiasa patuh pada zaujnya

Menjadi teman dan penasihat pertama

Mendidik zuriatnya utk terus bertaqwa...

Bukanlah menjadi yang luar biasa

Kerna Allah jua lah yang memberi kesemua nikmat yang ada

Namun bukan juga sekadar manusia biasa

Tetapi menjadi muslimat,muslimat yang biasa...